What an amazing start to the morning!
I have been feeling overwhelmed lately with the unknowns of owning and running my own business. It's been a slow process getting my information/concept out there. I have days that are really good, meaning lots of customers, and I feel excited. Other days it will be slow with little to no one stopping in and I get really discouraged. As a single mom trying to make a living to support myself and daughter, my life, so to speak, is in the hands of my customers. I constantly wonder if I am heading down the right path, is it being difficult because I am making the wrong choices or because it is simply a hard process? Sometimes it seems as things go so smoothly for people it makes me feel like, "What I am missing?" The help and support from my family and friends makes it possible for now but the amount I rely on them is overwhelming to me. I am so thankful but feel like there is no way I can show them how much it means to me. Then with all the help that they have given if the store doesn't work then I feel like I have let them down. So the waves of pressure and emotions I go through can be very encompassing.
One thing that I didn't count on when planning the store was the connections I would make with my customers. On my sign outside the store it says 'An Exclusive Jar Gardening Experience' and that certainly has been holding true. Coming into my store is not your everyday shopping experience. First it is very personal to me. It is my idea, my work, my creativity, my thoughts, my efforts, so what you see is me. We are all trying so hard at life and have so many different directions that we are being pulled. When people come in it is not what they expect, partly because there isn't anything like it around, but here there is no pressure, any level of creativity is embraced, you are allowed/encouraged to make a mess and are surrounded by natural things such as plants, dirt, stones and moss. People relax and share stories with me as they browse around or are making a terrarium. As they reconnect with nature they are reconnecting with different parts of themselves and I get to share this experience with them. In how many stores do you have that experience?
This morning I had two wonderful encounters. First was at home with a neighbor, she encouraged me to be more open with the blog which really spoke to me today. I spend so much time trying to be brave and hide if things are being rough yet I find so much comfort when I make a connection from reading or listening to someone sharing their experiences. So I thought I would give it a shot being more open on the blog here.
The second encounter was a customer that had a moving experience stopping in the store. We had a wonderful conversation and my time talking with them and their encouragement was an amazing way to start the day. That connection I made was special and gave me strength. After reflecting on that visit and as I write I feel like this idea of a store didn't come to me to simply benefit me but could be the start of something bigger, I don't think I can even grasp where it is going to go yet. To top it off as I started typing this today the song on Pandora was by Ben Howard called "Keep Your Head Up." Again it couldn't be more fitting. So I am going to keep my head up and be patient as I see where this journey is taking me.